things on my mind...

So I have had a lot of different things on my mind. And at random times I always wanna just type them all out here but I am not always near the computer. So I might just write and write until I feel like I have said all that I want to. This is a completely random list of things that I want to say and have been thinking about.
-for the love of Jesus, please please please don't invite me to do anything that will cost me any amount of money. we dont have 2 extra pennies to rub together for anything. All of our funds are going to wedding things. and we are in up to our necks with wedding planning and things we have agreed to and need to pay. essentially paying for your own wedding is eye opening to put it nicely and things cost way more than I had imagined so no, unfortuantely i do not have the money to do lots of extra things.
-the absolute last thing i ever want to do when i get home from work is go work out. i have never worked out a day in my life. (okay well i did cheerleading in HS and I have gone to the gym on and off from HS til now) but seriously i wish people would A. stop talking to me like i need to lose weight and B. stop suggesting exercise and bringing up going to the gym and talking about their workouts. I dont give a fuck. that sounds so mean i know but seriously i feel just fine the way i am and i have no desire to work out. at all. i do want to go on walks when i want to, with my fiance, because the weather is nice. but thats it.
-i really really really wish people would stop asking when we are going to have kids or talk to us like they know we are definitely going to have kids. i have always wanted to be a mom, and yes we do plan on having children one day. but we are not even married yet! AND, i havent shared this on this blog yet but I have something called Polycystic Ovary Syndrome- PCOS for short. and since I have this annoying thing called PCOS, having children will be hard for us. maybe not impossible, but a challenge. So, I truly wish people wouldn't assume...because like other bloggers have said, no one knows what other people have been thru or are going thru. like a conversation when i said yeah, if we have kids and the response is: 'IF you have kids?!" what is the supposed to mean?! and the person looks at me like i have 10 heads. jezuz.
-i think it is more than rude for people to question their invitation to our wedding. to tell me who i am going to invite to my wedding is ridiculous and rude and who in their right mind even does that? people might not even realize that they are doing it. but i wish people were more mindful of the way they talk about it with us. We, as an engaged couple, are going to invite the people WE want to invite. it is our day. and ya know what, a +1 is NOT assumed. A +1 is not always an option. a lot of couple do give every single guest a +1 but that is not the way it has to be. we A. do not have the space and B. do not have the money to give every single guest a +1. if people who are close to us have forgotten, we are paying for our wedding on our own, so as much as we would like to invite 300 people, it just isnt gonna happen. it cant, we cant do it. we can afford what we can afford and we want what we want for our special day.
-this brings me to the next thing. it is OUR day. me and my fiance. and while i appreciate the suggestions and ideas people have, please dont be mean when we tell you that we are going to do this instead of that or whatever. we want it how we want it. as should any couple getting married. and we may or may not use peoples ideas for us. OH going back to the whole weight thing, i just want to say, i am SO not the type of person to be all 'omg i have to work out really hard so i look reallly good in my dress and i have to lose at least this many pounds and i wanna be this many dress sizes down, etc etc'................that is SO SO SO not how i am AT ALL. I got my dress in the size that I am right now. I am not planning on going crazy trying to lose weight for the wedding. would it be nice, in a perfect world, sure. but i am not going to go crazy over it trying to 'look really great for our wedding day'.......if my fiance didnt think i look great how i am today, than we wouldnt be getting married. if i wanted to go crazy over losing weight i woulda done it before buying the dress.
-anyways..........i think that is all for now, like that isnt enough right? haha. i just needed to clear my thoughts and get things off my chest and write it all out. I just needed to vent. None of this is directed towards any of my followers, just so ya'll know.... lol and i hope it didnt offend anyone....these are just my thoughts and my feelings about some things that have been going on/brought up/discussed.

On a happy note, the weather is beautiful and football is on today and i am happy and in love! My and my fiance have been dating 3 1/2 years today! and we have been engaged for almost a whole year! wow! <3

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