Our Story.
I was just working on my sons scrapbook, well, one of them anyways. And, I had printed pictures that I was adding to the pages. I had a picture of me and my son right after birth and another of my husband and son right after birth and then right behind those were a few pictures of our son in the NICU. It got me thinking about Our Story and about how pictures represent so much. Of course they capture a specific moment in time but they also represent so much more than that.
One 2 scrapbook pages, side by side, I have the pictures placed and in these 2 simple scrapbook pages, there is an entire story represented. Well, not all the little details of course but it is a snapshot of Our Story.
These moments, captured in these pictures, forever changed our lives and forever changed us.
I don't think I can ever fully convey the emotions and feelings of that time in my life but it has molded me into who I am today. The experiences we had changed me and changed the way I look at certain things.
I think some people get sick of hearing about it but I don't care because no matter how much time passes, it will forever be in my mind. It will be a memory that I will always have. It will always be something that I lived. The entire experience is a huge part of us and our story.
Sometimes I wonder if I dwell on it too much or if I think of the past too much but it was such a vivid time that its hard just to not think about it ever. Of course I am going to think about it at time or when looking at pictures or when thinking about how far we've come.
My thriving 14 month old who just started walking has come such a long way and I am overjoyed when I think of how well he is doing now.
That's just it. people say: "well, he is healthy now, and thats all that matters."....okay but that doesn't mean the whole thing didnt happen either. Or people don't understand the severity of what I went thru after giving birth to him. Some think that the story is a lot of "fluff" and sounds dramatic. I was a dramatic, well, traumatic, experience. joyful too...but it had its intensity.
Of course, i am thankful that I have fully recovered and that my son is healthy now and that he did not have any long lasting effects from being sick as a 4 day old newborn.
Did you know that the antibiotics that were given to him to help his little body fight off pneumonia have the potential to cause hearing loss? Thank God no hearing loss was found.
That is just one example. We are really lucky to have a happy, really happy, boy. We are lucky to have a healthy child. We are super lucky that he is thriving and I am so grateful. I just remember the time when he wasn't healthy and when he wasn't able to be home with us. I remember all the things we went through and it's moved me in a way that I'm not sure I will ever have the words for.
One 2 scrapbook pages, side by side, I have the pictures placed and in these 2 simple scrapbook pages, there is an entire story represented. Well, not all the little details of course but it is a snapshot of Our Story.
These moments, captured in these pictures, forever changed our lives and forever changed us.
I don't think I can ever fully convey the emotions and feelings of that time in my life but it has molded me into who I am today. The experiences we had changed me and changed the way I look at certain things.
I think some people get sick of hearing about it but I don't care because no matter how much time passes, it will forever be in my mind. It will be a memory that I will always have. It will always be something that I lived. The entire experience is a huge part of us and our story.
Sometimes I wonder if I dwell on it too much or if I think of the past too much but it was such a vivid time that its hard just to not think about it ever. Of course I am going to think about it at time or when looking at pictures or when thinking about how far we've come.
My thriving 14 month old who just started walking has come such a long way and I am overjoyed when I think of how well he is doing now.
That's just it. people say: "well, he is healthy now, and thats all that matters."....okay but that doesn't mean the whole thing didnt happen either. Or people don't understand the severity of what I went thru after giving birth to him. Some think that the story is a lot of "fluff" and sounds dramatic. I was a dramatic, well, traumatic, experience. joyful too...but it had its intensity.
Of course, i am thankful that I have fully recovered and that my son is healthy now and that he did not have any long lasting effects from being sick as a 4 day old newborn.
Did you know that the antibiotics that were given to him to help his little body fight off pneumonia have the potential to cause hearing loss? Thank God no hearing loss was found.
That is just one example. We are really lucky to have a happy, really happy, boy. We are lucky to have a healthy child. We are super lucky that he is thriving and I am so grateful. I just remember the time when he wasn't healthy and when he wasn't able to be home with us. I remember all the things we went through and it's moved me in a way that I'm not sure I will ever have the words for.
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