Mothering
This morning I woke up and I realized that last night I was harboring a bit of negativity about getting up so many times over night because my son often wakes up crying.
I always nurse him back to sleep and thankfully am able to fall back to sleep myself, but I long for a full nights sleep.
I wish at times that he would sleep thru the night for us.
I do not believe in cry it out. plain and simple I do not like to let my child scream and cry while I sit there and do nothing. My husband does not believe in cry it out either.
With that said, I am also afraid that we've created a bit of a routine, him getting up so many times.
It used to be only twice, and then he slept thru the night for about a month int he early summer...and now he is getting up at least twice, often more...sometimes 5 times.
I feel tired and run down. Some days I feel okay and others I am exhausted.
There is this idea floating around that if you fill the baby's belly before bed time, they will sleep thru the night.
I call bullshit.
I never truly believed in that but it is an old way of thinking that if you feed the baby a nice helping of cereal, they will sleep thru the night for you.
Well, last night I gave out son a nice dinner of oatmeal cereal mixed with pears and raspberries. It was a good few ounces if I had to guess. I thought, this is it! He is full and he will sleep thru.
Well, he didn't. He was up twice before 10pm and another couple times before morning.
So, the full belly idea is BS.
Anyways, after he was up twice before 10pm I felt defeated in a way. I felt like I was run down. I wanted a good nights rest. And then, this morning I realized how selfish that was. It dawned on me that I was harboring negativity that did not need to be there.
Instead, I am changing my attitude about the entire situation.
Instead of feeling upset over my baby not sleeping thru the night...
Now, I feel lucky that I am able to successfully breastfeed my baby.
I feel thankful that my bodily readily produces breast milk which satisfies my childs needs.
I am grateful that I am able to calm and soothe my upset son in the middle of the night and get him back to sleep.
I cherish those moments with my son, even when I feel tired.
I enjoy bonding with my baby in these middle of the night feedings.
The comfort that my child gets from me is satisfying and makes me feel like a good mother.
My instincts tell me to pick up my son and nurse him back to sleep and I follow those instincts.
I don't need methods or books.
I am a mother and I have natural intuitions and instincts and I am doing a great job.
I always nurse him back to sleep and thankfully am able to fall back to sleep myself, but I long for a full nights sleep.
I wish at times that he would sleep thru the night for us.
I do not believe in cry it out. plain and simple I do not like to let my child scream and cry while I sit there and do nothing. My husband does not believe in cry it out either.
With that said, I am also afraid that we've created a bit of a routine, him getting up so many times.
It used to be only twice, and then he slept thru the night for about a month int he early summer...and now he is getting up at least twice, often more...sometimes 5 times.
I feel tired and run down. Some days I feel okay and others I am exhausted.
There is this idea floating around that if you fill the baby's belly before bed time, they will sleep thru the night.
I call bullshit.
I never truly believed in that but it is an old way of thinking that if you feed the baby a nice helping of cereal, they will sleep thru the night for you.
Well, last night I gave out son a nice dinner of oatmeal cereal mixed with pears and raspberries. It was a good few ounces if I had to guess. I thought, this is it! He is full and he will sleep thru.
Well, he didn't. He was up twice before 10pm and another couple times before morning.
So, the full belly idea is BS.
Anyways, after he was up twice before 10pm I felt defeated in a way. I felt like I was run down. I wanted a good nights rest. And then, this morning I realized how selfish that was. It dawned on me that I was harboring negativity that did not need to be there.
Instead, I am changing my attitude about the entire situation.
Instead of feeling upset over my baby not sleeping thru the night...
Now, I feel lucky that I am able to successfully breastfeed my baby.
I feel thankful that my bodily readily produces breast milk which satisfies my childs needs.
I am grateful that I am able to calm and soothe my upset son in the middle of the night and get him back to sleep.
I cherish those moments with my son, even when I feel tired.
I enjoy bonding with my baby in these middle of the night feedings.
The comfort that my child gets from me is satisfying and makes me feel like a good mother.
My instincts tell me to pick up my son and nurse him back to sleep and I follow those instincts.
I don't need methods or books.
I am a mother and I have natural intuitions and instincts and I am doing a great job.
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