round two!

Where do I begin.....I felt like I needed to blog, so here I am.

I've been back living at home for 4 months now. I got myself a great job, got my son into a good daycare, and we're learning a new normal. Our entire life has changed, but we're creating a new life here.

Whenever I see people the conversation always starts with: "Hi, how are you?" and my response as of late has been: "I'm okay".....because I need to hear myself say it. I need to put it out there into the universe. I'm okay. I am okay. I. Am. Okay. .....or I will be if I keep manifesting it enough.
I mean don't get me wrong, are there some days that I wake up and I'm in an amazing mood and nothing can bring me down? of course. But there are also days where I am annoyed as fuck and I'm angry. Those are the days where I have to remind myself of all the good things that I have in my life.

I think about my beautiful child who is happy and healthy. I think about how lucky I am to call this place my home. I think about how grateful I am for awesome friends and supportive family. I have amazing things in my life that I am extremely grateful for.

My entire life as I knew it has changed and I am changing too. There's no manual for this shit. No instructions on how you're supposed to do it all. One friend said to me not too long ago: "I have the old Hillary back. I have fun Hillary back again." and it hit me. I had changed from who I truly was. Now its time to be who I truly am again. One day at a time is what I keep thinking. Just taking it one day at a time.
Another saying I've picked up which I enjoy is: It's a Good Day to Have A Good Day! And that's just it.
So here's to new beginnings, create a new life for myself and my son, and living as positively as possible because I was obviously given this life because God knew I could handle it, so I'm gonna do what I gotta do and move forward, one day at a time.